Sunday, May 26, 2013
1st last exm
1st last exm.just hoping tht can go through it cz we cant really assimilate the content.it was an interesting subject yet ....i jst saw ur back when we're still sitting by the sideroad wall as ppl were hustling to go in. i dont know y at that moment Allah make me to lift my head n saw ur back walking passed us. and in the hall i just walk n straightly looking for my table to avoid seeing things i dont want to.even when we finished i thought u're there with ur gang when your fren were teasing T since the car was side by side,i was wrong n i found out cz i asked my fren last night, u're the latest,n my thought was- ah must be seeing that thing.cant u just text?gawd~!- i dont look at my right side to avoid seeing things u see.but i ended up had a very short eye contact w the driver, n at that time i think u just get in the car. n last night when P n M wanted to go there having dinner, i almost declined.but i pray hard that i dont bump onto u guys cz of that spot.even in the evening, when we passed the area u always be, i still hv the courage to look at it, thank god i dont see anything.everytime i take wudhu' when it come to the face part i'll doa that Allah dont let me see things i cant bear. n i am truly grateful for it at times.n the recent news i heard about my dear fren H ,was sort of heart breaking,almost made me cry, why is she need to experience things i had to. its painful n i dont want any of my frens to go through that.man are bakayaro.be firm.improve ur imaan.Ya Allah, please guide us.
Sunday, May 19, 2013
name
Oh i forgot to mention that day in the last comp.class me n S were sort of relieved? cz we thought u 3 were not coming.then 'kreekkk'.u appeared.n S msg me in gmail chat.and u sat behind me.for the 1st and the last time of our final year n after the tragedy.n y am i emphasized it here.cuz u called my name,after 10months.i wonder how did u felt when u hv to called me to gv the attendance list?its sort of sad.but i wasnt sure of my feelings at tht time. i heard u.yes,but it was only once. so i ddnt turned back cz i dont want to be labeled 'perasan' plus u said it too slow.honestly if u call it another time that is twice,i would turn around.even though it would hurt me to see your face. then i heard the chair moved.'ahh hes coming'..i ddnt expect that. then i think u said something like 'nah..bla3'. i can only say thank you n not looking at you at all n concentrate on the screen. i tried so hard to be sincere, to put a smile n look at you,but yet still i dont hv the strength to do tht. i pray hard Allah gv me tht strength n sincere-ness.then the rest of the time i dont know whether u were looking or not cz me n T kept on going infront to show the asgmnt.im being selective visual so tht i dont hurt myself.even nowadays not looking at the parking lot so i dont see things i wont assume or will make a stipulation n then hurt me.even by not looking now its already torturing me at times.Ya Allah take away this sins n unnecessary feelings.
come on u need to move on n forget.its reaching the time limit already
come on u need to move on n forget.its reaching the time limit already
Saturday, May 18, 2013
last time
It was the last class . the last time we learnt together for the whole time in this place after all the years. u may hv few more months to go after this n yet i hope you're being a good muslim. changed to what u once told me u want to be, to what i used to perceived u, to what i always pray and never stop pray for. i could only see your back when you walk down the aisle; leaving the class. the last presentation. and the last time i'll ever see u other than the final exam and perhaps last ever in my life; 9/5/13 Thurs.
Monday, April 22, 2013
wide open
i don't know why i have the urge to go out to accompany I n A.then yet i can feel that; something might happened.n then tadaaa...that something passed me and i saw it in front of my eyes with that thing they exchanged since last week which i thought had turned back to normal. with the act i know its that figure.oh Allah why did u let me see n experience it.now it leave me with heavy heart.i don't have the strength to let the stream flow anymore n i don't know why i should be upset to begin with. you are a very bad decision maker,you keep making mistakes over n over again.did you know i never stop praying for you to come back to the eyes i once saw back then when you were so sincere.or was i wrong you were never actually.ya Rabb,can only tell A,S n F to lessen the burden n of course the Almighty One. S said don't think cz she did that for her case and she felt ease and tranquil. I was until..that moment.
Friday, April 19, 2013
dark and blind
my good friend told me something that I didnt think of that kind of analogy,it sort of shock me how she could 'view' me like that.i was overwhelmed to be honest. it started when i was sort of emo that day cuz of what i saw the incidence this week,how stewwpeed of you how could you come out with that idea.such an JA.. oh how heavy my heart was. only YOU knows Ya Rabb. while waiting for Isya' prayer at the mosque i couldn't stop the streams while she was reciting the Qur'an, after finishing it she asked me whether i am ok or not. so i told her what was it in my mind from A to Z. and then you could guess how uncontrollable the stream went. sad
then on the way back we're a bit on that conversion of that matter she said " you're like a medicine, for 'it' to get better, but 'it' didnt want to take it.i wonder why 'it' could make such a decision.." something like that..and i replied " who likes to take medicine,only people who knows its for their better-man and could appreciate it would take it in or else they rather suffer.." see i don't know why,what or how you become so stewwpeed.and with what i heard recently also,it's the same thing that tettt said.i wonder why you would choose such a thing over what your heart once content.i never stop praying for your goodness.may Allah help us all.Ya Rahman Ya Raheem.amennn...
then on the way back we're a bit on that conversion of that matter she said " you're like a medicine, for 'it' to get better, but 'it' didnt want to take it.i wonder why 'it' could make such a decision.." something like that..and i replied " who likes to take medicine,only people who knows its for their better-man and could appreciate it would take it in or else they rather suffer.." see i don't know why,what or how you become so stewwpeed.and with what i heard recently also,it's the same thing that tettt said.i wonder why you would choose such a thing over what your heart once content.i never stop praying for your goodness.may Allah help us all.Ya Rahman Ya Raheem.amennn...
Thursday, March 28, 2013
that moment
Wow.It's been a while.reading the post down there...it's been 2 years since that night.The night that had changed my life forever and it's still fresh in my mind. And u.ughh u; who I resent so much.yet still care.oh Allah !
Reading that line.."...so i could retreat peacefully." from the previous post.Oh how I already said it to myself yet HE already planned for you. Ya Rabb, please forgive me and grant YOUR blessing on us and those surrounding me who is having this heart disease; guide us Ya Rabb.Only YOU know us, YOUR lowly slave.
it's almost 2 years since the confession; 1+ year of promises & 8 months after the tragedy.from dedication of 'Aishiteru' song to reply of "Cukup cukup sudah" song. Sad,very sad.
oh puffyness today ;PMS+fam.stuff+memories
Reading that line.."...so i could retreat peacefully." from the previous post.Oh how I already said it to myself yet HE already planned for you. Ya Rabb, please forgive me and grant YOUR blessing on us and those surrounding me who is having this heart disease; guide us Ya Rabb.Only YOU know us, YOUR lowly slave.
it's almost 2 years since the confession; 1+ year of promises & 8 months after the tragedy.from dedication of 'Aishiteru' song to reply of "Cukup cukup sudah" song. Sad,very sad.
oh puffyness today ;
Sunday, April 24, 2011
you dont know what you're doing!
now its saturday 11.42 pm. yesterday marked 1 week of the conversation or could we say 'write-sation' haha..2am + on friday 15/4/11 morning till morning-daylight .no until night i reached home that was.pheww
i wished that time never happened.why?! cuz it leaves me in moreconfused, heart-aching and unstable state. i dont know what has gotten over me or you. but i would really like to believe what you have written but the present and evidences are showing something else. its just the preliminary stage and i should not be exaggerating things yet. fine. talking to my sis n mama sure eased what is inside my tangling mind.
i still couldn't believe i have the courage to do what i asked the day earlier. it was sort of embarrassing n i thought u wouldn't replied anymore and thats the end of it since it took u almost 1 day to reply back [ later figured why it took so long, or maybe not.i assumed it was since u told me the whole night-day fun u had].fine. i've lost hope, the 2nd hope to be exact. but since you replied stating to deny what u've done on that piece of paper. im totally set out. i wonder what makes u suddenly came up with the reply since i've set up my mind with the ' ok ' text. and then there everything blurt out. seriously i have a lot more to say, i mean write cuz YOU are playing with people's feeling and heart. and it does matter especially when somebody else really3x i could say love you. so why must you complicate things more and started it at 1st. now it has become a war, an unseen war.
ahhh didnt sleep the whole night packing for the evacuation and danggg u started the whole thing.lucky dura was up too so it soothed me a little to answer you back.to give proper replies
i dont know what to expect now. cuz somebody will get hurt at the end. so better be cautious and dont be too indulge in this thing so i could retreat peacefully.
thanks for drawing akilah, it was cute and sweet
waiting to see what u gonna write after a week and who are you going to greet 1st.ahh man they just being denial and ignorant.sigh~
i wished that time never happened.why?! cuz it leaves me in more
i still couldn't believe i have the courage to do what i asked the day earlier. it was sort of embarrassing n i thought u wouldn't replied anymore and thats the end of it since it took u almost 1 day to reply back [ later figured why it took so long, or maybe not.i assumed it was since u told me the whole night-day fun u had].fine. i've lost hope, the 2nd hope to be exact. but since you replied stating to deny what u've done on that piece of paper. im totally set out. i wonder what makes u suddenly came up with the reply since i've set up my mind with the ' ok ' text. and then there everything blurt out. seriously i have a lot more to say, i mean write cuz YOU are playing with people's feeling and heart. and it does matter especially when somebody else really3x i could say love you. so why must you complicate things more and started it at 1st. now it has become a war, an unseen war.
ahhh didnt sleep the whole night packing for the evacuation and danggg u started the whole thing.lucky dura was up too so it soothed me a little to answer you back.to give proper replies
i dont know what to expect now. cuz somebody will get hurt at the end. so better be cautious and dont be too indulge in this thing so i could retreat peacefully.
thanks for drawing akilah, it was cute and sweet
waiting to see what u gonna write after a week and who are you going to greet 1st.ahh man they just being denial and ignorant.sigh~
Saturday, April 9, 2011
small hole
wow almost a year ey?!
lotsa things happened ; fam.conflict,studies,friendship,err..love life?k-h eww haha! && even the world!
quite fun last nite.ema finishes her exam n we still hv 1 more to go in 5days.after that 5 months holiday!
end year end sem -roomies day out n hangover with me besties~ <3
but 1 thing that aches my heart..that 1 thing which had started since last year i supposed.
dear my little-young friend,
i don't enjoy our conversation/ jokes anymore.i would missed the time when i laugh my whole heart out with your jokes when nobody understand it && i would longed for the time u would listen to my stories and nonsense..sad
period.
lotsa things happened ; fam.conflict,studies,friendship,err..love life?k-h eww haha! && even the world!
quite fun last nite.ema finishes her exam n we still hv 1 more to go in 5days.after that 5 months holiday!
end year end sem -roomies day out n hangover with me besties~ <3
but 1 thing that aches my heart..that 1 thing which had started since last year i supposed.
dear my little-young friend,
i don't enjoy our conversation/ jokes anymore.i would missed the time when i laugh my whole heart out with your jokes when nobody understand it && i would longed for the time u would listen to my stories and nonsense..sad
period.
Monday, April 12, 2010
At Last!
it's been a while isnt it?can't get the time or feel to write~
mmmmmmmmmm so many things to say but aaa not in d mood
well at last we've finished i mean I have finished my 1st year journey..Alhamdulillah..n now just waiting for the results.omg the papers were umm errr aaah.. dont know how to describe it,cuz actually its easy ..somehow manageable IF u really study well..hhaha thats always the case right?
oh well u've done it again as usual n never appreciated the opportunity! Y__________Y
praying,hoping n WILL change for next semester/year InsyaALLAH :)
what else for the past few months [almost 6 months ey]..mm new sem [2nd sem] yadayadayada...what i can recalled plus can tell here mm went to celebrate anis's + hanan's b'day @Santai,we're lucky cuz Dura suggested it cuz initially it was decided to be @ another place..then lotsa laugh n stuffs..oh i went out with Eyka earlier to buy them a cake which then Anis bought herself too at secret recipe..we just buy the simple common one..So we celebrated with Hanan too cuz a week+ earlier was hers and teh couldnt join..
girls frens r 4ever <3
What else?mmmmmm Oh i dont know how i was selected to be the secretary for Faci team 'seminar kerjaya 2010'
I was sleeping then suddently got a msg from shukri saying i was chosen and am i willing to take the post? i was hesitating cuz whatt?!secretary??? i've never been 1.. plus,all the letters stuffs i'm not good at.so yea..after all the hardship..went to OSC ,OCD.. what else?calling the schools..meetings x100 [exaggerating here ;p] some problems which we almost postponed it and many more which i would say...human's error and we are not perfect ..
so yea whats done is done..oh mass halaqah on the same day..which was so terrible before that cuz of our 1st batch gathering to play bowling..oh i should hv mention it earlier and the sciences sport's day too! [see u have so many things to blurt out at the same time haha]almost got asthma attack cuz of too much laughing,coughing,screaming and talking! [i was unwell right?!] n it was HOT!
oh and batch gathering for exam..last 1 for this sem.quite interesting cuz they announced new line of 'management'where teh won for asstn.batch leader where we as good fren didnt even vote for her [as requested] lol..fun games n as usual f00d n picturess~
anyway good things about all of this events..i got to know more people,make new friends,observed and knowing different various huge variety of human's attitude ,feelings and acts..did i mention i was sick?after quite a long time..mmm quite terrible,but i manage to survive without going to the clinic and taking antibiotics..yeay!
Alhamdulillah almost 1 week++ with the severe headache when it comes to afternoon and runny nose..sore throat..oh my all i did was sleeppp..n of course some medication and good food~~
btw i'm driving to class too haha
what an experienced driving at karak highway with ayah n b.mie..before that i was practicing with b.jat..well only 1 night at putrajaya where ateh follow us at the back..haha
then 1 more time @sg.buloh with the yellow car hahha
oh back at uni they called it 'spotlight' [thanks to mira and anis] cuz i supposed due to its colour plus d incidence where all were looking when they knew i was driving it..so weird haha
mmmm Eyka's fren which he used to called me 'anak makcik cafe' cuz we bluffed him ever since he heard my voice on the phone through Eyka's..so yea watever lol
what else...hillarious memories..back @our room [1.1 M2]..our bond as roomate seemed to become stronger and 'sweeter' cuz we are more closer now cuz of Ema's 'cucu,caca,cici' [her adopted cats] where me and Dura are the stepmom..cuz of unwell treat and we were not that affectionated towards them and many other things ahha..eating togeter in the room..'keropok lekor' each rm2 every thursday n friday pasar malam?! hha
Tkay'scrushes [almost c8 now ;pp]..Teh's marriage dilemma..[we <3 u babe] lol..and lotsa events which i shall keep it to myself...
besides the family matter..
oh n my 1st..well can say 2nd caraccident too...[i'm so lucky to have a father like ayah :D] nahh forget it..mmm got other guys stories but umm not that important..well its a girl thing haha
ahh many more to write but cant remember/somewhere under the folding of my brain/feel like writing it ;p
Ah!new niece and nephew..arissa..kakcik's 2nd daughter,how adorable..missing her so much![pinching her actually ;p] and ateh's baby boy..imran ariff..2months now and chubby [like 4 months?]
n now im at home atm for the sem.break where others are having 3 months holiday! n mine's just 2 weeks..yes i took short sem.to finished up Malay,Arabic n UNGS so that we wont be 'serabut' after this..
well a little sacrifices for a little ease in the future..InsyaAllah
mmmmmmmmmm so many things to say but aaa not in d mood
well at last we've finished i mean I have finished my 1st year journey..Alhamdulillah..n now just waiting for the results.omg the papers were umm errr aaah.. dont know how to describe it,cuz actually its easy ..somehow manageable IF u really study well..hhaha thats always the case right?
oh well u've done it again as usual n never appreciated the opportunity! Y__________Y
praying,hoping n WILL change for next semester/year InsyaALLAH :)
what else for the past few months [almost 6 months ey]..mm new sem [2nd sem] yadayadayada...what i can recalled plus can tell here mm went to celebrate anis's + hanan's b'day @Santai,we're lucky cuz Dura suggested it cuz initially it was decided to be @ another place..then lotsa laugh n stuffs..oh i went out with Eyka earlier to buy them a cake which then Anis bought herself too at secret recipe..we just buy the simple common one..So we celebrated with Hanan too cuz a week+ earlier was hers and teh couldnt join..
girls frens r 4ever <3
What else?mmmmmm Oh i dont know how i was selected to be the secretary for Faci team 'seminar kerjaya 2010'
I was sleeping then suddently got a msg from shukri saying i was chosen and am i willing to take the post? i was hesitating cuz whatt?!secretary??? i've never been 1.. plus,all the letters stuffs i'm not good at.so yea..after all the hardship..went to OSC ,OCD.. what else?calling the schools..meetings x100 [exaggerating here ;p] some problems which we almost postponed it and many more which i would say...human's error and we are not perfect ..
so yea whats done is done..oh mass halaqah on the same day..which was so terrible before that cuz of our 1st batch gathering to play bowling..oh i should hv mention it earlier and the sciences sport's day too! [see u have so many things to blurt out at the same time haha]almost got asthma attack cuz of too much laughing,coughing,screaming and talking! [i was unwell right?!] n it was HOT!
oh and batch gathering for exam..last 1 for this sem.quite interesting cuz they announced new line of 'management'where teh won for asstn.batch leader where we as good fren didnt even vote for her [as requested] lol..fun games n as usual f00d n picturess~
anyway good things about all of this events..i got to know more people,make new friends,observed and knowing different various huge variety of human's attitude ,feelings and acts..did i mention i was sick?after quite a long time..mmm quite terrible,but i manage to survive without going to the clinic and taking antibiotics..yeay!
Alhamdulillah almost 1 week++ with the severe headache when it comes to afternoon and runny nose..sore throat..oh my all i did was sleeppp..n of course some medication and good food~~
btw i'm driving to class too haha
what an experienced driving at karak highway with ayah n b.mie..before that i was practicing with b.jat..well only 1 night at putrajaya where ateh follow us at the back..haha
then 1 more time @sg.buloh with the yellow car hahha
oh back at uni they called it 'spotlight' [thanks to mira and anis] cuz i supposed due to its colour plus d incidence where all were looking when they knew i was driving it..so weird haha
mmmm Eyka's fren which he used to called me 'anak makcik cafe' cuz we bluffed him ever since he heard my voice on the phone through Eyka's..so yea watever lol
what else...hillarious memories..back @our room [1.1 M2]..our bond as roomate seemed to become stronger and 'sweeter' cuz we are more closer now cuz of Ema's 'cucu,caca,cici' [her adopted cats] where me and Dura are the stepmom..cuz of unwell treat and we were not that affectionated towards them and many other things ahha..eating togeter in the room..'keropok lekor' each rm2 every thursday n friday pasar malam?! hha
Tkay's
besides the family matter..
oh n my 1st..well can say 2nd car
ahh many more to write but cant remember/somewhere under the folding of my brain/feel like writing it ;p
Ah!new niece and nephew..arissa..kakcik's 2nd daughter,how adorable..missing her so much![pinching her actually ;p] and ateh's baby boy..imran ariff..2months now and chubby [like 4 months?]
n now im at home atm for the sem.break where others are having 3 months holiday! n mine's just 2 weeks..yes i took short sem.to finished up Malay,Arabic n UNGS so that we wont be 'serabut' after this..
well a little sacrifices for a little ease in the future..InsyaAllah
Saturday, October 24, 2009
b strong n confidence
wwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
yeps feels like screaming like that..anybody knows any place where i could do that?
nahh
time passed so fast!!!!!!!its already end of october?!
lotsa things happened..................n now only have 1 week before final exam for my 1st sem here
pheeww
how will it be?what will it be?
Ya Allah please ease every endeavor to achive my dream,if it's the best for me.aminnnn~
joined faciteam..haha..had some fun during I-quest,cooking comp.[we are d brownies] but missed the pet,horsie riding n those sort of extreme games..huhu..well it was bloody hot
and it rains at night..plus not feeling very well on the last day of it.oh well still have next year perhaps
oh and raya @KoS
srabut but ok la..haha
oh my and the epi presentation,biochem model structure [coming soon] and many more...i wonder why they like to give it all during last days before examz
nway must studyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
Ya Allah.......please give me the strenght and will to continue with these things i am facing with
p/s:the email ayah posted to us ;strong n confidence ,was quite touching
yeps feels like screaming like that..anybody knows any place where i could do that?
nahh
time passed so fast!!!!!!!its already end of october?!
lotsa things happened..................n now only have 1 week before final exam for my 1st sem here
pheeww
how will it be?what will it be?
Ya Allah please ease every endeavor to achive my dream,if it's the best for me.aminnnn~
joined faciteam..haha..had some fun during I-quest,cooking comp.[we are d brownies] but missed the pet,horsie riding n those sort of extreme games..huhu..well it was bloody hot
and it rains at night..plus not feeling very well on the last day of it.oh well still have next year perhaps
oh and raya @KoS
srabut but ok la..haha
oh my and the epi presentation,biochem model structure [coming soon] and many more...i wonder why they like to give it all during last days before examz
nway must studyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
Ya Allah.......please give me the strenght and will to continue with these things i am facing with
p/s:the email ayah posted to us ;strong n confidence ,was quite touching
Monday, August 31, 2009
coolie
yes..ateh has started her blogshop
sweet-lovender.blogspot.com
quite fancy tudung/selendang/brooches
mmm all the best~ :)
sweet-lovender.blogspot.com
quite fancy tudung/selendang/brooches
mmm all the best~ :)
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
al fatihah...
tok passed away yesterday,17/8 (already 1.55am 18/8) around 7pm
inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi rajiun...
Monday, August 10, 2009
Str@wb3rrY
Yeps...just finished uploading the title background [few hours ago] after so many attempts to fit on the right size..cute n de-li-ci-ous arent they? strawberries ~
i'm not a huge fan of strawberry-flavour stuffs.is just that its shape seldom the heart shape really caught my eyes n certain pictures are too pretty haha
yes,i like pretty,cute,fancy little 'creation' :D
mmm how i wish i could plant strawberries and eat it straight away..maybe perhaps 1 day insyaAllah~
plus after ages and now starting to write again here [cuz i have little shard of time but due to the holiday and after kos assgnmnt wanted a blog,which i already have but inactive],i couldnt stop listening to the song..from inuyasha-4 seasons..really makes me feel delighted
anyway its 3.30am now..better hit the pillow or i'll loose my 'fresh' look
hahaha
i'm not a huge fan of strawberry-flavour stuffs.is just that its shape seldom the heart shape really caught my eyes n certain pictures are too pretty haha
yes,i like pretty,cute,fancy little 'creation' :D
mmm how i wish i could plant strawberries and eat it straight away..maybe perhaps 1 day insyaAllah~
plus after ages and now starting to write again here [cuz i have little shard of time but due to the holiday and after kos assgnmnt wanted a blog,which i already have but inactive],i couldnt stop listening to the song..from inuyasha-4 seasons..really makes me feel delighted
anyway its 3.30am now..better hit the pillow or i'll loose my 'fresh' look
hahaha
Monday, August 3, 2009
FrOggy~~
[made this due to KoS subject]
xD
I used to have an ' obsession' over frogs.It's not like I love the actual frogs,but I love those fancy cute cartoons or drawing of frogs like keroppi..if you ever heard of it.
My dad used to tell me that when i was small;a toddler, I was saying something like 'Atak tengok tatak' at my mom's orchids garden I supposed.So maybe that's where it begun..
Eventhough some frogs are small and pretty but they are...poisonous..you know where some movies or commercial always use the term 'cute and deadly'..i supposed they took it from the frogs..
Most of the really small colourful frogs are poisonous in the wild. But these frogs tend to lose a lot, if not all, of their toxicity when bred in captivity (even if they were originally caught in the wild!). This is largely due to the lack of variety that these critters would normally be getting in their diet in the wild.
A huge amount of their toxicity is because of an ant that they eat in the wild which no sane pet owner gives them in captivity.
Despite it's label as the most poisonous of frogs, even the bright yellow p. terriblis isn't so poisonous that a human could die by just touching it in the wild.
The poison cannot permeate our skin.
If, on the other hand, there is a cut on the skin, however, before you have time to say 'oops that frog is poisonous' you're a goner, at least in the case of p. terriblis!
Same goes for if you forget after playing with this pretty frog and accidentally put your hand in your mouth!
Some tribes in rainforests dip their arrows in frog poison to make them deadly weapons. That's probably where "poison dart frogs" got their common name...
Not all the colorful frogs are poisonous.
Some imitate the poisonous ones with colour, and apparently the warning is enough to protect them from potential predators.
Just the gist about the most poisonous frog..if you ever wonder about it~
The Phyllobate Terribilis is the most poisonous frog in the world. It has enough toxin to kill up to 10 humans,or even 20,000 mice! This frog is considered the most poisonous animal in the world. If you were to take poison from this frog, equal to the size of the period at the end of this sentence, it would be enough to kill a full grown human. This frog is aggresive, yet does very well with other Terribilis' in captivity. For the most part, this frog is for more experienced people in the hobby.
have you ever think of this??
>>>How long can a frog lives?
- It turns out that very little is known at all about the natural lifespan of frogs. Partially, this is because it's pretty hard to track a frog all its life! (I guess they havent figured out a good way to put little tiny collars around their necks!)
- However,some records show that in captivity, many species of frogs and toads can live for surprisingly long times. They seem generally average somewhere between 4 and 15 years!
- The longest lifespan entered was a European Common Toad (Bufo bufo ssp.) at 40 years!!!!!
>>>Do frogs have teeth?
- Actually, yes!
- Most frogs do in fact have teeth of a sort.
- They have a ridge of very small cone teeth around the upper edge of the jaw. These are called Maxillary Teeth.
- Frogs often also have what are called Vomerine Teeth on the roof of their mouth.
- They don't have anything that could be called teeth on their lower jaw, so they usually swallow their food whole. The so-called "teeth" are mainly used to hold the prey and keep it in place till they can get a good grip on it and squash their eyeballs down to swallow their meal.
- Toads, however, do NOT have any teeth.
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Thursday, July 30, 2009
cinta Allah
yeps,quite a long time ddnt write anything..dont feel like to.maybe...soon xD
*reminder to myself
n those single girls out there dont worry n be happy~ hhaha ;)
p/s:thank u amal
Ya ALLAH,
jika aku jatuh cinta,
cintakanlah aku pada seseorang yang melabuhkan cintanya pada-MU,
agar dapat menambahkan lagi kekuatanku
untuk mencintai-MU.
Ya ALLAH,
jika aku jatuh cinta,jagalah cintaku padanya agar tidak melebihi cintaku pada-MU.
Ya ALLAH,
jika aku jatuh cinta,
izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang yang hatinya tertaut pada-MUagar tidak terjatuh aku dalam jurang semu
Ya ALLAH,
jika aku jatuh cintajagalah hatiku padanyaagar tidak berpaling dari-MU
Ya ALLAH,
sesungguhnya aku bermohon pada-MU untuk selalu mencintai-MU
WARKAH ADAM UNTUK HAWA
HAWA, andai engkau masih belum dimiliki,
usahlah kau mencari-cari,
berpeganglah pada janji ALLAH,
perempuan yg baik dicipta untuk lelaki yg baik
Andainya ditakdirkan tiada cinta Adam untukmu,
cukuplah sekadar cinta ALLAH dan cinta ibu-bapa menemani hidupmu kerana mungkin jodohmu bukan di dunia,
tp di akhirat sana.
:DD
Friday, July 25, 2008
u know y?
Oh my gooooooooood!i dunno how to describe what I feel right now,soooooooo heavy,,sort of wanna cry,but it won’t come out!!u know y?
Earlier,when I just reached my ‘house’ a.k.a hostel a.k.a my room,,[aftr the mpw m’sian studies exam haha] I received msg from dibah,she said she’s at my house nw,in mesaieed,,so I was like smiling and replied to her, “haha,so far u went”..then she was like,, “ur mom invited us to hv lunch at ur house”,yea that’s y I was wondering,,hmm 5+pm,must be 12+noon something there,,then she said she wanna sent pixies through mms,,so I said okay,,then when I received the pixies,,o-m-g……I dunno what to say,not crying,not feeling tense,but I dunno,,,,u know y?cuz she sent pics of my room,the picture of the lunch..i saw my dad n the house’s hall,,glimpse of my mom at the kitchen n lastly my mom with her mom sitting at the sofa,,,it brings a lot of memories…..gosh,,,,how I wished I wanna go there back!so saddd~the images still lingered in my mind,,,I don’t think I’ll go back there again,either to see them or visited my friends,just hv to wait for my parents come back for eid this October..but my oh my,,,it brings back the reminiscences when we used to do that and dibah n family or even other m’sian will drop by..helping mama at the kitchen and many more…….plus meeting others at al bayan club or other m’sian house when there r some gathering and celebrations…sadsadsad!
Plus ym n msn acting crazy!they said it’s because of the connection,,but it seems okay!can even chat with dibah last night,,a proper chat!and it’s thousandsss kilometer away~~ but just now it irritated me soo much cuz cant hv a proper chat with adik cuz I wanna know the latest news how is she doing and my 2 nieces over there~testing my patience again…n now I’m sitting here writing this to lessen my anger,,haha what a way……..
On top of that,,tomorrow’s parents teaching meeting,,plus BM exm,,n still not ready for maths ppr this Monday,,so stress since it contributed most of the GPA~god…n computing the next day,,which I hd messed up the practical,,how depressing,,u know y?cuz I could do the trial, and it’s the same thing; I mean what the applications are,excel and words,and we know how to do it,,but the practical was a disaster!o-m-g………...o-m-g,,,dunno how the lecturers will say bout me to ateh then reported to ayah n mama,,,since the trial rslts weren’t that good,,,we r so unprepared yada yada yada,,,they might think,I’m not capable of doing it,,yea maybe,could be..sometimes I feel like I’m getting slower or even stupid-er as I grow up since the exm results are deteriorating a.k.a declining,,dunno y,,I used to asked my dad,,n tell him bout this but he said “ur brain are getting better+smarter as u grow up”..well,,,..hmm..when it comes to class discussion,I could answer most of it,,so they think,oh “she’s okay~no probs at all!” but the examiner will see ur paper;the answer booklet;what u wrote,,they don’t know who u r,or what u really r,how well u perform in class n so on~,,,,,,,,,u see,I dont want to disappoint my parents,after what they hv done,what they hv spent and many more sacrifices they hd done,,I don’t want it to be wasted,,,they said “it’s okay,u’ve tried ur best,don’t be sad or disappointed if the results r not good”,,whenever I asked them to pray for my success when they called me..but u still want the best, correct?i really hope I could be like my friends,,where they r already on their way achieving their dream and on the safe,right path,,sometimes I’m very jealous of them,really,truly envy them..my my my..i really hope I could make my parents delightful,happy n proud of my achievements,,someday..
I always think of chipp's words,what she wrote on my fs comment,, “ all that starts well..ends well..insyaAllah...remember to DOA A LOT..and always have GOOD thot on ALLAH for whatever ALLAH gives you..” it soothed me somehow,when I was sooo down when something not favourable happened..hmm..yes u hv to accept the qada’n qadar,,but u can changed ur destiny on certain part,,even in Mr.Robin’s mail he sent me,he said “success will come to those who r hardworking”..see so many ppl trying to tell me and encourage me to think positively,even my english teacher several days ago when I was getting the English results told me to not think negatively when I told her I didn’t do good for her ppr..even in the journal we hv to write,she wrote something like “failure is a way to success” in one of my entry,,but I dunno,,u hv this thing in ur mind cuz u’ve been ‘hit’ by so many ‘tragedy’ that weaken u,,this remind me of As lvl,,god,,,was heart-broken,,,see..n now I don’t want to repeat the same mistake,the same results,the same thinking ppl view u…it’ll be like o-m-g,,no improvement,,wherever she goes,it’be the same..
So yeah..*blowing nose,,was a bit emo in the parents part* …now I’m repeating what I wrote in the As lvl entry,, “I dunno what’s God’s plan for my future”..
Ya Rabb,please give me the will n strength to keep moving on,please lead n guide me on the right path,please forgive me for any of my wrongdoing and please avoid any mishap from occurring to me,,and please don’t let me to never forget to thank U and appreciate any of ur blessings whatever the circumstances are..aaaminnnnnn :]
Earlier,when I just reached my ‘house’ a.k.a hostel a.k.a my room,,[aftr the mpw m’sian studies exam haha] I received msg from dibah,she said she’s at my house nw,in mesaieed,,so I was like smiling and replied to her, “haha,so far u went”..then she was like,, “ur mom invited us to hv lunch at ur house”,yea that’s y I was wondering,,hmm 5+pm,must be 12+noon something there,,then she said she wanna sent pixies through mms,,so I said okay,,then when I received the pixies,,o-m-g……I dunno what to say,not crying,not feeling tense,but I dunno,,,,u know y?cuz she sent pics of my room,the picture of the lunch..i saw my dad n the house’s hall,,glimpse of my mom at the kitchen n lastly my mom with her mom sitting at the sofa,,,it brings a lot of memories…..gosh,,,,how I wished I wanna go there back!so saddd~the images still lingered in my mind,,,I don’t think I’ll go back there again,either to see them or visited my friends,just hv to wait for my parents come back for eid this October..but my oh my,,,it brings back the reminiscences when we used to do that and dibah n family or even other m’sian will drop by..helping mama at the kitchen and many more…….plus meeting others at al bayan club or other m’sian house when there r some gathering and celebrations…sadsadsad!
Plus ym n msn acting crazy!they said it’s because of the connection,,but it seems okay!can even chat with dibah last night,,a proper chat!and it’s thousandsss kilometer away~~ but just now it irritated me soo much cuz cant hv a proper chat with adik cuz I wanna know the latest news how is she doing and my 2 nieces over there~testing my patience again…n now I’m sitting here writing this to lessen my anger,,haha what a way……..
On top of that,,tomorrow’s parents teaching meeting,,plus BM exm,,n still not ready for maths ppr this Monday,,so stress since it contributed most of the GPA~god…n computing the next day,,which I hd messed up the practical,,how depressing,,u know y?cuz I could do the trial, and it’s the same thing; I mean what the applications are,excel and words,and we know how to do it,,but the practical was a disaster!o-m-g………...o-m-g,,,dunno how the lecturers will say bout me to ateh then reported to ayah n mama,,,since the trial rslts weren’t that good,,,we r so unprepared yada yada yada,,,they might think,I’m not capable of doing it,,yea maybe,could be..sometimes I feel like I’m getting slower or even stupid-er as I grow up since the exm results are deteriorating a.k.a declining,,dunno y,,I used to asked my dad,,n tell him bout this but he said “ur brain are getting better+smarter as u grow up”..well,,,..hmm..when it comes to class discussion,I could answer most of it,,so they think,oh “she’s okay~no probs at all!” but the examiner will see ur paper;the answer booklet;what u wrote,,they don’t know who u r,or what u really r,how well u perform in class n so on~,,,,,,,,,u see,I dont want to disappoint my parents,after what they hv done,what they hv spent and many more sacrifices they hd done,,I don’t want it to be wasted,,,they said “it’s okay,u’ve tried ur best,don’t be sad or disappointed if the results r not good”,,whenever I asked them to pray for my success when they called me..but u still want the best, correct?i really hope I could be like my friends,,where they r already on their way achieving their dream and on the safe,right path,,sometimes I’m very jealous of them,really,truly envy them..my my my..i really hope I could make my parents delightful,happy n proud of my achievements,,someday..
I always think of chipp's words,what she wrote on my fs comment,, “ all that starts well..ends well..insyaAllah...remember to DOA A LOT..and always have GOOD thot on ALLAH for whatever ALLAH gives you..” it soothed me somehow,when I was sooo down when something not favourable happened..hmm..yes u hv to accept the qada’n qadar,,but u can changed ur destiny on certain part,,even in Mr.Robin’s mail he sent me,he said “success will come to those who r hardworking”..see so many ppl trying to tell me and encourage me to think positively,even my english teacher several days ago when I was getting the English results told me to not think negatively when I told her I didn’t do good for her ppr..even in the journal we hv to write,she wrote something like “failure is a way to success” in one of my entry,,but I dunno,,u hv this thing in ur mind cuz u’ve been ‘hit’ by so many ‘tragedy’ that weaken u,,this remind me of As lvl,,god,,,was heart-broken,,,see..n now I don’t want to repeat the same mistake,the same results,the same thinking ppl view u…it’ll be like o-m-g,,no improvement,,wherever she goes,it’be the same..
So yeah..*blowing nose,,was a bit emo in the parents part* …now I’m repeating what I wrote in the As lvl entry,, “I dunno what’s God’s plan for my future”..
Ya Rabb,please give me the will n strength to keep moving on,please lead n guide me on the right path,please forgive me for any of my wrongdoing and please avoid any mishap from occurring to me,,and please don’t let me to never forget to thank U and appreciate any of ur blessings whatever the circumstances are..aaaminnnnnn :]
Sunday, July 20, 2008
not meant to be
Not fated to be
Whenever they mention about it,it made me sad;guilty with what I’ve done to u,it was unintentionally.i was too naïve,don’t know how to react properly even though deep down in my heart I was delighted,content and joyful with the ongoing situation.but the impact afterwards was rather melancholic.sometimes 1 or 2 drops fall down when they remind me of it,sometimes I’m truly regretting it.that’s the problem when u have this ‘disease’ of how to express feelings well.and others,including u ;think of the other way round.i still remember the feeling/reaction when we were exchanging news.funny/sweet/bizarre texts from u made me grin.i could still recall portion of it;not going to write it here.and soon after that I found out something,which was unpleasant,but I can’t say anything or over react since there’s nothing to be argue of.and then just keeping track of it.hearing stories and stuffs.but oh well that’s your part.then later on,more interesting news.haha.and after so many years,when we met again the awkward feeling to approach and talk to each other still seems clear.the learning memories and other things when you drop by still lingered in my mind when I recall the past year’s events.but it’s too late now.no turning back.i could just save it as shards in my heart and mind to be recall someday so it could remind me how terrible I was and do not repeat it again,or even smile when it comes to the good part.that’s why were not fated to be.it is already destined that way perhaps.better person for each other for the rest of our lives,indeed.so no use of feeling remorse or anything.life goes on yada yada yada.haha.so the purpose of writing this is just to let go what I’ve kept for the past 4 years which they had trigger me this evening to spill it out by doing this,,so immature haha.
Whenever they mention about it,it made me sad;guilty with what I’ve done to u,it was unintentionally.i was too naïve,don’t know how to react properly even though deep down in my heart I was delighted,content and joyful with the ongoing situation.but the impact afterwards was rather melancholic.sometimes 1 or 2 drops fall down when they remind me of it,sometimes I’m truly regretting it.that’s the problem when u have this ‘disease’ of how to express feelings well.and others,including u ;think of the other way round.i still remember the feeling/reaction when we were exchanging news.funny/sweet/bizarre texts from u made me grin.i could still recall portion of it;not going to write it here.and soon after that I found out something,which was unpleasant,but I can’t say anything or over react since there’s nothing to be argue of.and then just keeping track of it.hearing stories and stuffs.but oh well that’s your part.then later on,more interesting news.haha.and after so many years,when we met again the awkward feeling to approach and talk to each other still seems clear.the learning memories and other things when you drop by still lingered in my mind when I recall the past year’s events.but it’s too late now.no turning back.i could just save it as shards in my heart and mind to be recall someday so it could remind me how terrible I was and do not repeat it again,or even smile when it comes to the good part.that’s why were not fated to be.it is already destined that way perhaps.better person for each other for the rest of our lives,indeed.so no use of feeling remorse or anything.life goes on yada yada yada.haha.so the purpose of writing this is just to let go what I’ve kept for the past 4 years which they had trigger me this evening to spill it out by doing this,,so immature haha.
well yea..
Do u know how it feels,when u had settled something which is quite,,mm let say very important for ur life??it's not really completed actually,imagine u r 1/10 according to the plan..still long way to go though n who knows what might pops out in between...
So yea,,imagine u've been worrying n crying or sometimes weeping after those misunderstanding,interpreting info's n many more,,cuz u've been thinking gosh how to make them understand it??how to do this alone?or can u do it?will u succeed?if u missed it..mm there could be a chance,but u'll be wasting time..n u know how precious time is,,,
Even though it is still last minute,but u need to take the chance,have faith in it.But it makes u go,,Ya Allah..why is it so hard to achieve such a thing,which is a great thing to aim for and a noble quest to share/help with afterwards,, So yea,for the past 2 days,,imagine u've rushing n being deeply patient,,emotionless again, reluctant to the rebellious feeling,,when solving the works.Hoping for others help,n how grateful u r for having them to help u settling the first 10%..,,n then u've been thinking again Ya Allah..how can i repay them..only U can Ya Rabb,please blessed them with what they deserved,,
But still,u r not done,,if u succeed then all those efforts for the 10% were worth it,,but if not,mmm could be taken as one of the new experience u gained,,but at the end; would still causes u to weep,,indeed.
So yea,,the worrying part will remain,,,it will haunt u untill u r 99.99% on going with the plan..
But God,how can u express what u feel right now?ppl say speak it out,,talk to others,but u r sick of having puffy eyes when it burst out,,correct?
Sometimes..when somebody said that they were just concern about u,whether u can manage it/is it possible for u cuz of ur state n such,,,it makes ur heart feels so heavy~the obstacles % increases n u have no idea what to say anymore,,cuz the rest u know what will happen..
People might see u as so weak/spoilt/too sensitive bout this particular thing cuz everytime the 'teardrop' will be mention,,is it not?but i suppose that's the truth when u r dwelling with things u've been trying to strike all this while n always,,always something will slow or perhaps halt it for a moment..
Negatively thinking-it's not meant to be for u
Positively thinking-u r being tested,ought to be strong n more hardworking
N those minute factors,,builds up the problem even more,,kind of stupid to think bout it,,so yea dont know dont care~,whatever~ n blablblala
still praying n hoping to the Almighty One to ease the burden n all things go smoothly as planned aaminnnn ;)
So yea,,imagine u've been worrying n crying or sometimes weeping after those misunderstanding,interpreting info's n many more,,cuz u've been thinking gosh how to make them understand it??how to do this alone?or can u do it?will u succeed?if u missed it..mm there could be a chance,but u'll be wasting time..n u know how precious time is,,,
Even though it is still last minute,but u need to take the chance,have faith in it.But it makes u go,,Ya Allah..why is it so hard to achieve such a thing,which is a great thing to aim for and a noble quest to share/help with afterwards,, So yea,for the past 2 days,,imagine u've rushing n being deeply patient,,emotionless again, reluctant to the rebellious feeling,,when solving the works.Hoping for others help,n how grateful u r for having them to help u settling the first 10%..,,n then u've been thinking again Ya Allah..how can i repay them..only U can Ya Rabb,please blessed them with what they deserved,,
But still,u r not done,,if u succeed then all those efforts for the 10% were worth it,,but if not,mmm could be taken as one of the new experience u gained,,but at the end; would still causes u to weep,,indeed.
So yea,,the worrying part will remain,,,it will haunt u untill u r 99.99% on going with the plan..
But God,how can u express what u feel right now?ppl say speak it out,,talk to others,but u r sick of having puffy eyes when it burst out,,correct?
Sometimes..when somebody said that they were just concern about u,whether u can manage it/is it possible for u cuz of ur state n such,,,it makes ur heart feels so heavy~the obstacles % increases n u have no idea what to say anymore,,cuz the rest u know what will happen..
People might see u as so weak/spoilt/too sensitive bout this particular thing cuz everytime the 'teardrop' will be mention,,is it not?but i suppose that's the truth when u r dwelling with things u've been trying to strike all this while n always,,always something will slow or perhaps halt it for a moment..
Negatively thinking-it's not meant to be for u
Positively thinking-u r being tested,ought to be strong n more hardworking
N those minute factors,,builds up the problem even more,,kind of stupid to think bout it,,so yea dont know dont care~,whatever~ n blablblala
still praying n hoping to the Almighty One to ease the burden n all things go smoothly as planned aaminnnn ;)
Saturday, July 19, 2008
new chapter begins~
yup 1st time leaving alone hmm~
Two weeks had passed.The odd world seemed fine and I'm starting
to get use to it.Eventhough some people couldn't be there,to see
and leave you away from the comfort zone,,for the 1st time,though
it should be that way years ago.Alhamdulillah,Ya Allah,the most
Gracious and Merciful for giving me the strength and willingness
without realising it to keep moving forward although the mind
partially kept on swirling/declining/objecting;but the body keeps
doing it as if somebody's instructing/operating yourself.The farewell
that Sunday evening actually was rather emotional,,but as she always
do,I did that to them-'salam',bye and turn around,,before more
'unwanted' scene occured.I dont know,how Allah had make me doing
all the things by myself,alone and emotionless;where no daddy/big
sis to send/talk to them,settling things,move around and many
more.Sometimes i feel 'empty',like a robot doing as it's been
programmed.
The 1st day was quite enjoyable;where I think other people wouldn't
get the opportunity like we did.Then the rest of the week just
exploring the area,getting to know places,what do they have and
how things work here.Afterwards the following week,tuesday;8am-
6pm,what a torture and it will remains for the rest of the term,I
suppose.The body couldn't sustained anymore.Maybe due to new
'ambience',new environment and new people;u just need to 'go
slow'.But NO!if u didn't follow as it is,how are you going to
overcome/endure/face more pain/obstacles/tears even more in the
next step?!They called.I know it's what everyone would
do;concern,caring and love.But it makes you 'weak'.Just a quick
response.It may sound 'unresponsive',but you need to build the
resistance.Like I told Zen''It's not that I don't want them to call,
I would love to,,but I prefer only sometimes or just messaging cuz it
can makes you 'break down''.Even she agreed.
The other peeps are friendly.Though haven't get to know the other
courses.Quite funny experiences in Chem and Eng;a bit,the rest are
OK.Thougher works and expectations,but if others can do it,why
can't you??The others are doing their own work.The path which is
already secured for them.Their own world.How I wish I could be at
their place.Sometimes it's sad to think of what you are now or how
they look what I am becoming,even though it's not that bad or it
is.*the medicine said can cause drowsinesss,but it's nearly 3.30am
and nothing happened.What a stubborn resistant!*
So yea,surviving the other week.What an accomplishment.Hoping it
can keep going well.I've been thinking/wondering;''with this frail
body can i pursue what i've been dreamt of?how come some real
movies/dramas made people with disease a great doctor/specialist?''
When you found out that particular person,that you look up and
love,find that you,sometimes are just a nuisance.It makes the tear
glands activated non stop.You've been thinking;gosh,all this while
my enthusiasm,cheerfulness and support,,gone with the wind.And
that certain people's response on you which is not what you were
hoping for,turn you off/dissapoint/halt the plans you intended to do
in the next meeting.But on 2nd thought;..Oh well,bad day,,not the
end of the world,..what goes around,comes around?..perhaps~
After all,human makes mistakes.That's my weakness or can be call
now;the ability of forgiveness;it's a good trait,isn't it?
The good news from Iffah was a big shock!Was just
guessing;spontaneous one,but it came out to be true.So many
questions being asked.Yea,I was curious;how,why,when,what?and so
on;bad traits-ask too many questions.My sis once told me to be a
lawyer because of that.But hey,it was too sudden,you need
info's~Anyway,Congrats!MashaAllah,,I'm really happy for you.May
Allah bless you with a blissful life~~I really envy her,though
something are missing but she's 10000 times better than me!All the
memories/lessons the 3 of us had had will be treasured forever!
Some people forget what friendship really is and treated things as if
'it doesn't matter' where as for others 'it does'.
Sometimes you just need to carry on walking.And back to the
Almighty One when you are lost.End what you had been doing and
sort the tasks you are destined to do/be.Even so~~
Two weeks had passed.The odd world seemed fine and I'm starting
to get use to it.Eventhough some people couldn't be there,to see
and leave you away from the comfort zone,,for the 1st time,though
it should be that way years ago.Alhamdulillah,Ya Allah,the most
Gracious and Merciful for giving me the strength and willingness
without realising it to keep moving forward although the mind
partially kept on swirling/declining/objecting;but the body keeps
doing it as if somebody's instructing/operating yourself.The farewell
that Sunday evening actually was rather emotional,,but as she always
do,I did that to them-'salam',bye and turn around,,before more
'unwanted' scene occured.I dont know,how Allah had make me doing
all the things by myself,alone and emotionless;where no daddy/big
sis to send/talk to them,settling things,move around and many
more.Sometimes i feel 'empty',like a robot doing as it's been
programmed.
The 1st day was quite enjoyable;where I think other people wouldn't
get the opportunity like we did.Then the rest of the week just
exploring the area,getting to know places,what do they have and
how things work here.Afterwards the following week,tuesday;8am-
6pm,what a torture and it will remains for the rest of the term,I
suppose.The body couldn't sustained anymore.Maybe due to new
'ambience',new environment and new people;u just need to 'go
slow'.But NO!if u didn't follow as it is,how are you going to
overcome/endure/face more pain/obstacles/tears even more in the
next step?!They called.I know it's what everyone would
do;concern,caring and love.But it makes you 'weak'.Just a quick
response.It may sound 'unresponsive',but you need to build the
resistance.Like I told Zen''It's not that I don't want them to call,
I would love to,,but I prefer only sometimes or just messaging cuz it
can makes you 'break down''.Even she agreed.
The other peeps are friendly.Though haven't get to know the other
courses.Quite funny experiences in Chem and Eng;a bit,the rest are
OK.Thougher works and expectations,but if others can do it,why
can't you??The others are doing their own work.The path which is
already secured for them.Their own world.How I wish I could be at
their place.Sometimes it's sad to think of what you are now or how
they look what I am becoming,even though it's not that bad or it
is.*the medicine said can cause drowsinesss,but it's nearly 3.30am
and nothing happened.What a stubborn resistant!*
So yea,surviving the other week.What an accomplishment.Hoping it
can keep going well.I've been thinking/wondering;''with this frail
body can i pursue what i've been dreamt of?how come some real
movies/dramas made people with disease a great doctor/specialist?''
When you found out that particular person,that you look up and
love,find that you,sometimes are just a nuisance.It makes the tear
glands activated non stop.You've been thinking;gosh,all this while
my enthusiasm,cheerfulness and support,,gone with the wind.And
that certain people's response on you which is not what you were
hoping for,turn you off/dissapoint/halt the plans you intended to do
in the next meeting.But on 2nd thought;..Oh well,bad day,,not the
end of the world,..what goes around,comes around?..perhaps~
After all,human makes mistakes.That's my weakness or can be call
now;the ability of forgiveness;it's a good trait,isn't it?
The good news from Iffah was a big shock!Was just
guessing;spontaneous one,but it came out to be true.So many
questions being asked.Yea,I was curious;how,why,when,what?and so
on;bad traits-ask too many questions.My sis once told me to be a
lawyer because of that.But hey,it was too sudden,you need
info's~Anyway,Congrats!MashaAllah,,I'm really happy for you.May
Allah bless you with a blissful life~~I really envy her,though
something are missing but she's 10000 times better than me!All the
memories/lessons the 3 of us had had will be treasured forever!
Some people forget what friendship really is and treated things as if
'it doesn't matter' where as for others 'it does'.
Sometimes you just need to carry on walking.And back to the
Almighty One when you are lost.End what you had been doing and
sort the tasks you are destined to do/be.Even so~~
:.sayonara
yup back when i was leaving doha~sad...
just slept for almost 2 hours yesterday n then woke up at 5am to bid my farewell~..nobody was in the class,n then after some times misha came,,big smile,''qeylaaa'',,so i told her what was going on,the shocking news i got last night,but then tonight plan changed again,sigh..then i went somewhere n anjuli n yumi were in the class,huggies~~n anj gave this cute pressie,,hahah so cute n i'm still wearing the bracelet,,asked them to walk outside,,cool breeze for the last walk around the school..how i missed the good old days we had in grd 10 n 11 walking around during breaks..1st 2 lessons,cs,so just sit with nurul at the common room,they were having chem test that day,i told ms.luthra i dont want to do it,,haha even anj was like ''what's the point?'' hehe,,then maths,,had no clue,,well a bit,,cuz missed the whole lesson,,,so just kept quiet n tried to do the questions with nurul's help..chem test just took the paper n tried to do it with open book nyahaha,it was past papers,,then breaks,,ate the last chicken sandwich with nurul outside,,talking stuff about 'undescribable' juniors..then double bio,,1st period at chem's lab,end up chatting n signing my shirt =)
then hug ms.luthra,went upstairs,,oh time to get the certificate,,wasnt a good thing,,talked to the *beep* accountant,spoilt my mood cuz he didnt understand what i was saying,now i know how they felt,,hahha so i was like 'hmm ok thank u'',,went out told afif n nurul,,then anj n dd came down n ask what's going on,told them 'i'm pissed'..then cant talk or tears will come out,,then couldnt hold it anymore,,wahh 1st time both of them saw me crying! then ms.latha was there,she tought i was sad cuz leaving i was like 'nothing ms,it's ok'' then dd hug,,aww,,they told me to talk to mr.martin,,dont think it will work,then i just told them to go to afif to see how is she,,afterwards we asked mr.martin,,n the answer was sooo not helping,,thought so,so yeah went upstairs took my hp n called daddy,afif talked to him then fine,,he called again n wanted to talk to the registrar,,still no idea,so he said 'let me talked to the accountant',,gave it to him n then he asked them to photocopy the certificate n gave it out,,gosh what do they do,,just take $??,,QP didnt do it,,wth?!if QP had not done it,,we'll surely get the letter when the term started,,hellloo it's already nearly end of the term,,then ms.rema,,hmm sad,,her words,,n the results last aug,,couldnt hold it,,keep on pouring,,couldnt say anything just ''uhuh,,mhmm'' ,,bell rang,,took pics,,hahaha crazy pics,,BIG HUG,,emo moment,,andrew was like 'r u crying?' gonna mishh them so much,,couldnt find mr.ammi n ms.sheila,,at last found him outside,ran to him ,,told him,,he was kinda surprised too,,
asked him where ms.sheila is,,running again,,haa she's still there,,my heart felt so heavy,,huuu told her everything,,then had a little talk..n farewell~~
oh n on the way home,,was talking to afif but still sensitive over this matter,,it's still there,just waiting to be ticced n it will run down..
meggy i just read your message today thank you for everything!!no probs dude,that's what friends r for ^_^ ,,i felt the same too,,gonna miss u dude,,yup same b'day!n as always..u can do it!!u r the sweetest person too,,be strong,,i know u are!good luck in what ever u do..mail me or when i come online,,nudge me~~!being in the bio class for 2 yrs was fun..we were the 'good' girls,,hahaha..
n the rest of u guys,,,damn i'll miss for sure!!to suzy choosy,,hv fun in dubai baby+do what ever u like!,,lol how i missed u said,,''hey baby'',,hahha,,nix,jeremy,billy,,hmm the meany ahmad,,maryam,shivi,n who ever i didnt mentioned,,all of my memories,will keep u near~~
n to qatar's friendss,,those m'sian,,take care~
sayonara~
just slept for almost 2 hours yesterday n then woke up at 5am to bid my farewell~..nobody was in the class,n then after some times misha came,,big smile,''qeylaaa'',,so i told her what was going on,the shocking news i got last night,but then tonight plan changed again,sigh..then i went somewhere n anjuli n yumi were in the class,huggies~~n anj gave this cute pressie,,hahah so cute n i'm still wearing the bracelet,,asked them to walk outside,,cool breeze for the last walk around the school..how i missed the good old days we had in grd 10 n 11 walking around during breaks..1st 2 lessons,cs,so just sit with nurul at the common room,they were having chem test that day,i told ms.luthra i dont want to do it,,haha even anj was like ''what's the point?'' hehe,,then maths,,had no clue,,well a bit,,cuz missed the whole lesson,,,so just kept quiet n tried to do the questions with nurul's help..chem test just took the paper n tried to do it with open book nyahaha,it was past papers,,then breaks,,ate the last chicken sandwich with nurul outside,,talking stuff about 'undescribable' juniors..then double bio,,1st period at chem's lab,end up chatting n signing my shirt =)
then hug ms.luthra,went upstairs,,oh time to get the certificate,,wasnt a good thing,,talked to the *beep* accountant,spoilt my mood cuz he didnt understand what i was saying,now i know how they felt,,hahha so i was like 'hmm ok thank u'',,went out told afif n nurul,,then anj n dd came down n ask what's going on,told them 'i'm pissed'..then cant talk or tears will come out,,then couldnt hold it anymore,,wahh 1st time both of them saw me crying! then ms.latha was there,she tought i was sad cuz leaving i was like 'nothing ms,it's ok'' then dd hug,,aww,,they told me to talk to mr.martin,,dont think it will work,then i just told them to go to afif to see how is she,,afterwards we asked mr.martin,,n the answer was sooo not helping,,thought so,so yeah went upstairs took my hp n called daddy,afif talked to him then fine,,he called again n wanted to talk to the registrar,,still no idea,so he said 'let me talked to the accountant',,gave it to him n then he asked them to photocopy the certificate n gave it out,,gosh what do they do,,just take $??,,QP didnt do it,,wth?!if QP had not done it,,we'll surely get the letter when the term started,,hellloo it's already nearly end of the term,,then ms.rema,,hmm sad,,her words,,n the results last aug,,couldnt hold it,,keep on pouring,,couldnt say anything just ''uhuh,,mhmm'' ,,bell rang,,took pics,,hahaha crazy pics,,BIG HUG,,emo moment,,andrew was like 'r u crying?' gonna mishh them so much,,couldnt find mr.ammi n ms.sheila,,at last found him outside,ran to him ,,told him,,he was kinda surprised too,,
asked him where ms.sheila is,,running again,,haa she's still there,,my heart felt so heavy,,huuu told her everything,,then had a little talk..n farewell~~
oh n on the way home,,was talking to afif but still sensitive over this matter,,it's still there,just waiting to be ticced n it will run down..
meggy i just read your message today thank you for everything!!no probs dude,that's what friends r for ^_^ ,,i felt the same too,,gonna miss u dude,,yup same b'day!n as always..u can do it!!u r the sweetest person too,,be strong,,i know u are!good luck in what ever u do..mail me or when i come online,,nudge me~~!being in the bio class for 2 yrs was fun..we were the 'good' girls,,hahaha..
n the rest of u guys,,,damn i'll miss for sure!!to suzy choosy,,hv fun in dubai baby+do what ever u like!,,lol how i missed u said,,''hey baby'',,hahha,,nix,jeremy,billy,,hmm the meany ahmad,,maryam,shivi,n who ever i didnt mentioned,,all of my memories,will keep u near~~
n to qatar's friendss,,those m'sian,,take care~
sayonara~
