well yea..

Do u know how it feels,when u had settled something which is quite,,mm let say very important for ur life??it's not really completed actually,imagine u r 1/10 according to the plan..still long way to go though n who knows what might pops out in between...
So yea,,imagine u've been worrying n crying or sometimes weeping after those misunderstanding,interpreting info's n many more,,cuz u've been thinking gosh how to make them understand it??how to do this alone?or can u do it?will u succeed?if u missed it..mm there could be a chance,but u'll be wasting time..n u know how precious time is,,,
Even though it is still last minute,but u need to take the chance,have faith in it.But it makes u go,,Ya Allah..why is it so hard to achieve such a thing,which is a great thing to aim for and a noble quest to share/help with afterwards,, So yea,for the past 2 days,,imagine u've rushing n being deeply patient,,emotionless again, reluctant to the rebellious feeling,,when solving the works.Hoping for others help,n how grateful u r for having them to help u settling the first 10%..,,n then u've been thinking again Ya Allah..how can i repay them..only U can Ya Rabb,please blessed them with what they deserved,,
But still,u r not done,,if u succeed then all those efforts for the 10% were worth it,,but if not,mmm could be taken as one of the new experience u gained,,but at the end; would still causes u to weep,,indeed.
So yea,,the worrying part will remain,,,it will haunt u untill u r 99.99% on going with the plan..
But God,how can u express what u feel right now?ppl say speak it out,,talk to others,but u r sick of having puffy eyes when it burst out,,correct?
Sometimes..when somebody said that they were just concern about u,whether u can manage it/is it possible for u cuz of ur state n such,,,it makes ur heart feels so heavy~the obstacles % increases n u have no idea what to say anymore,,cuz the rest u know what will happen..
People might see u as so weak/spoilt/too sensitive bout this particular thing cuz everytime the 'teardrop' will be mention,,is it not?but i suppose that's the truth when u r dwelling with things u've been trying to strike all this while n always,,always something will slow or perhaps halt it for a moment..
Negatively thinking-it's not meant to be for u
Positively thinking-u r being tested,ought to be strong n more hardworking
N those minute factors,,builds up the problem even more,,kind of stupid to think bout it,,so yea dont know dont care~,whatever~ n blablblala
still praying n hoping to the Almighty One to ease the burden n all things go smoothly as planned aaminnnn ;)