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Oh i forgot to mention that day in the last comp.class me n S were sort of relieved? cz we thought u 3 were not coming.then 'kreekkk'.u appeared.n S msg me in gmail chat.and u sat behind me.for the 1st and the last time of our final year n after the tragedy.n y am i emphasized it here.cuz u called my name,after 10months.i wonder how did u felt when u hv to called me to gv the attendance list?its sort of sad.but i wasnt sure of my feelings at tht time. i heard u.yes,but it was only once. so i ddnt turned back cz i dont want to be labeled 'perasan' plus u said it too slow.honestly if u call it another time that is twice,i would turn around.even though it would hurt me to see your face. then i heard the chair moved.'ahh hes coming'..i ddnt expect that. then i think u said something like 'nah..bla3'. i can only say thank you n not looking at you at all n concentrate on the screen. i tried so hard to be sincere, to put a smile n look at you,but yet still i dont hv the strength to do tht. i pray hard Allah gv me tht strength n sincere-ness.then the rest of the time i dont know whether u were looking or not cz me n T kept on going infront to show the asgmnt.im being selective visual so tht i dont hurt myself.even nowadays not looking at the parking lot so i dont see things i wont assume or will make a stipulation n then hurt me.even by not looking now its already torturing me at times.Ya Allah take away this sins n unnecessary feelings.

come on u need to move on n forget.its reaching the time limit already