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i don't know why i have the urge to go out to accompany I n A.then yet i can feel that; something might happened.n then tadaaa...that something passed me and i saw it in front of my eyes with that thing they exchanged since last week which i thought had turned back to normal. with the act i know its that figure.oh Allah why did u let me see n experience it.now it leave me with heavy heart.i don't have the strength to let the stream flow anymore n i don't know why i should be upset to begin with. you are a very bad decision maker,you keep making mistakes over n over again.did you know i never stop praying for you to come back to  the eyes i once saw back then when you were so sincere.or was i wrong you were never actually.ya Rabb,can only tell A,S n F to lessen the burden n of course the Almighty One. S said don't think cz she did that for her case and she felt ease and tranquil. I was until..that moment.