you dont know what you're doing!

now its saturday 11.42 pm. yesterday marked 1 week of the conversation or could we say 'write-sation' haha..2am + on friday 15/4/11 morning till morning-daylight .no until night i reached home that was.pheww
i wished that time never happened.why?! cuz it leaves me in more confused, heart-aching and unstable state. i dont know what has gotten over me or you. but i would really like to believe what you have written but the present and evidences are showing something else. its just the preliminary stage and i should not be exaggerating things yet. fine. talking to my sis n mama sure eased what is inside my tangling mind.
i still couldn't believe i have the courage to do what i asked the day earlier. it was sort of embarrassing n i thought u wouldn't replied anymore and thats the end of it since it took u almost 1 day to reply back [ later figured why it took so long, or maybe not.i assumed it was since u told me the whole night-day fun u had].fine. i've lost hope, the 2nd hope to be exact. but since you replied stating to deny what u've done on that piece of paper. im totally set out. i wonder what makes u suddenly came up with the reply since i've set up my mind with the ' ok ' text. and then there everything blurt out. seriously i have a lot more to say, i mean write cuz YOU are playing with people's feeling and heart. and it does matter especially when somebody else really3x i could say love you. so why must you complicate things more and started it at 1st. now it has become a war, an unseen war.
ahhh didnt sleep the whole night packing for the evacuation and danggg u started the whole thing.lucky dura was up too so it soothed me a little to answer you back.to give proper replies
i dont know what to expect now. cuz somebody will get hurt at the end. so better be cautious and dont be too indulge in this thing so i could retreat peacefully.
thanks for drawing akilah, it was cute and sweet
waiting to see what u gonna write after a week and who are you going to greet 1st.ahh man they just being denial and ignorant.sigh~

small hole

wow almost a year ey?!
lotsa things happened ; fam.conflict,studies,friendship,err..love life?k-h eww haha! && even the world!
quite fun last nite.ema finishes her exam n we still hv 1 more to go in 5days.after that 5 months holiday!
end year end sem -roomies day out n hangover with me besties~ <3
but 1 thing that aches my heart..that 1 thing which had started since last year i supposed.
dear my little-young friend,
i don't enjoy our conversation/ jokes anymore.i would missed the time when i laugh my whole heart out with your jokes when nobody understand it && i would longed for the time u would listen to my stories and nonsense..sad

period.