Oh my gooooooooood!i dunno how to describe what I feel right now,soooooooo heavy,,sort of wanna cry,but it won’t come out!!u know y?
Earlier,when I just reached my ‘house’ a.k.a hostel a.k.a my room,,[aftr the mpw m’sian studies exam haha] I received msg from dibah,she said she’s at my house nw,in mesaieed,,so I was like smiling and replied to her, “haha,so far u went”..then she was like,, “ur mom invited us to hv lunch at ur house”,yea that’s y I was wondering,,hmm 5+pm,must be 12+noon something there,,then she said she wanna sent pixies through mms,,so I said okay,,then when I received the pixies,,o-m-g……I dunno what to say,not crying,not feeling tense,but I dunno,,,,u know y?cuz she sent pics of my room,the picture of the lunch..i saw my dad n the house’s hall,,glimpse of my mom at the kitchen n lastly my mom with her mom sitting at the sofa,,,it brings a lot of memories…..gosh,,,,how I wished I wanna go there back!so saddd~the images still lingered in my mind,,,I don’t think I’ll go back there again,either to see them or visited my friends,just hv to wait for my parents come back for eid this October..but my oh my,,,it brings back the reminiscences when we used to do that and dibah n family or even other m’sian will drop by..helping mama at the kitchen and many more…….plus meeting others at al bayan club or other m’sian house when there r some gathering and celebrations…sadsadsad!
Plus ym n msn acting crazy!they said it’s because of the connection,,but it seems okay!can even chat with dibah last night,,a proper chat!and it’s thousandsss kilometer away~~ but just now it irritated me soo much cuz cant hv a proper chat with adik cuz I wanna know the latest news how is she doing and my 2 nieces over there~testing my patience again…n now I’m sitting here writing this to lessen my anger,,haha what a way……..
On top of that,,tomorrow’s parents teaching meeting,,plus BM exm,,n still not ready for maths ppr this Monday,,so stress since it contributed most of the GPA~god…n computing the next day,,which I hd messed up the practical,,how depressing,,u know y?cuz I could do the trial, and it’s the same thing; I mean what the applications are,excel and words,and we know how to do it,,but the practical was a disaster!o-m-g………...o-m-g,,,dunno how the lecturers will say bout me to ateh then reported to ayah n mama,,,since the trial rslts weren’t that good,,,we r so unprepared yada yada yada,,,they might think,I’m not capable of doing it,,yea maybe,could be..sometimes I feel like I’m getting slower or even stupid-er as I grow up since the exm results are deteriorating a.k.a declining,,dunno y,,I used to asked my dad,,n tell him bout this but he said “ur brain are getting better+smarter as u grow up”..well,,,..hmm..when it comes to class discussion,I could answer most of it,,so they think,oh “she’s okay~no probs at all!” but the examiner will see ur paper;the answer booklet;what u wrote,,they don’t know who u r,or what u really r,how well u perform in class n so on~,,,,,,,,,u see,I dont want to disappoint my parents,after what they hv done,what they hv spent and many more sacrifices they hd done,,I don’t want it to be wasted,,,they said “it’s okay,u’ve tried ur best,don’t be sad or disappointed if the results r not good”,,whenever I asked them to pray for my success when they called me..but u still want the best, correct?i really hope I could be like my friends,,where they r already on their way achieving their dream and on the safe,right path,,sometimes I’m very jealous of them,really,truly envy them..my my my..i really hope I could make my parents delightful,happy n proud of my achievements,,someday..
I always think of chipp's words,what she wrote on my fs comment,, “ all that starts well..ends well..insyaAllah...remember to DOA A LOT..and always have GOOD thot on ALLAH for whatever ALLAH gives you..” it soothed me somehow,when I was sooo down when something not favourable happened..hmm..yes u hv to accept the qada’n qadar,,but u can changed ur destiny on certain part,,even in Mr.Robin’s mail he sent me,he said “success will come to those who r hardworking”..see so many ppl trying to tell me and encourage me to think positively,even my english teacher several days ago when I was getting the English results told me to not think negatively when I told her I didn’t do good for her ppr..even in the journal we hv to write,she wrote something like “failure is a way to success” in one of my entry,,but I dunno,,u hv this thing in ur mind cuz u’ve been ‘hit’ by so many ‘tragedy’ that weaken u,,this remind me of As lvl,,god,,,was heart-broken,,,see..n now I don’t want to repeat the same mistake,the same results,the same thinking ppl view u…it’ll be like o-m-g,,no improvement,,wherever she goes,it’be the same..
So yeah..*blowing nose,,was a bit emo in the parents part* …now I’m repeating what I wrote in the As lvl entry,, “I dunno what’s God’s plan for my future”..
Ya Rabb,please give me the will n strength to keep moving on,please lead n guide me on the right path,please forgive me for any of my wrongdoing and please avoid any mishap from occurring to me,,and please don’t let me to never forget to thank U and appreciate any of ur blessings whatever the circumstances are..aaaminnnnnn :]
Friday, July 25, 2008
Sunday, July 20, 2008
not meant to be
Not fated to be
Whenever they mention about it,it made me sad;guilty with what I’ve done to u,it was unintentionally.i was too naïve,don’t know how to react properly even though deep down in my heart I was delighted,content and joyful with the ongoing situation.but the impact afterwards was rather melancholic.sometimes 1 or 2 drops fall down when they remind me of it,sometimes I’m truly regretting it.that’s the problem when u have this ‘disease’ of how to express feelings well.and others,including u ;think of the other way round.i still remember the feeling/reaction when we were exchanging news.funny/sweet/bizarre texts from u made me grin.i could still recall portion of it;not going to write it here.and soon after that I found out something,which was unpleasant,but I can’t say anything or over react since there’s nothing to be argue of.and then just keeping track of it.hearing stories and stuffs.but oh well that’s your part.then later on,more interesting news.haha.and after so many years,when we met again the awkward feeling to approach and talk to each other still seems clear.the learning memories and other things when you drop by still lingered in my mind when I recall the past year’s events.but it’s too late now.no turning back.i could just save it as shards in my heart and mind to be recall someday so it could remind me how terrible I was and do not repeat it again,or even smile when it comes to the good part.that’s why were not fated to be.it is already destined that way perhaps.better person for each other for the rest of our lives,indeed.so no use of feeling remorse or anything.life goes on yada yada yada.haha.so the purpose of writing this is just to let go what I’ve kept for the past 4 years which they had trigger me this evening to spill it out by doing this,,so immature haha.
Whenever they mention about it,it made me sad;guilty with what I’ve done to u,it was unintentionally.i was too naïve,don’t know how to react properly even though deep down in my heart I was delighted,content and joyful with the ongoing situation.but the impact afterwards was rather melancholic.sometimes 1 or 2 drops fall down when they remind me of it,sometimes I’m truly regretting it.that’s the problem when u have this ‘disease’ of how to express feelings well.and others,including u ;think of the other way round.i still remember the feeling/reaction when we were exchanging news.funny/sweet/bizarre texts from u made me grin.i could still recall portion of it;not going to write it here.and soon after that I found out something,which was unpleasant,but I can’t say anything or over react since there’s nothing to be argue of.and then just keeping track of it.hearing stories and stuffs.but oh well that’s your part.then later on,more interesting news.haha.and after so many years,when we met again the awkward feeling to approach and talk to each other still seems clear.the learning memories and other things when you drop by still lingered in my mind when I recall the past year’s events.but it’s too late now.no turning back.i could just save it as shards in my heart and mind to be recall someday so it could remind me how terrible I was and do not repeat it again,or even smile when it comes to the good part.that’s why were not fated to be.it is already destined that way perhaps.better person for each other for the rest of our lives,indeed.so no use of feeling remorse or anything.life goes on yada yada yada.haha.so the purpose of writing this is just to let go what I’ve kept for the past 4 years which they had trigger me this evening to spill it out by doing this,,so immature haha.
well yea..
Do u know how it feels,when u had settled something which is quite,,mm let say very important for ur life??it's not really completed actually,imagine u r 1/10 according to the plan..still long way to go though n who knows what might pops out in between...
So yea,,imagine u've been worrying n crying or sometimes weeping after those misunderstanding,interpreting info's n many more,,cuz u've been thinking gosh how to make them understand it??how to do this alone?or can u do it?will u succeed?if u missed it..mm there could be a chance,but u'll be wasting time..n u know how precious time is,,,
Even though it is still last minute,but u need to take the chance,have faith in it.But it makes u go,,Ya Allah..why is it so hard to achieve such a thing,which is a great thing to aim for and a noble quest to share/help with afterwards,, So yea,for the past 2 days,,imagine u've rushing n being deeply patient,,emotionless again, reluctant to the rebellious feeling,,when solving the works.Hoping for others help,n how grateful u r for having them to help u settling the first 10%..,,n then u've been thinking again Ya Allah..how can i repay them..only U can Ya Rabb,please blessed them with what they deserved,,
But still,u r not done,,if u succeed then all those efforts for the 10% were worth it,,but if not,mmm could be taken as one of the new experience u gained,,but at the end; would still causes u to weep,,indeed.
So yea,,the worrying part will remain,,,it will haunt u untill u r 99.99% on going with the plan..
But God,how can u express what u feel right now?ppl say speak it out,,talk to others,but u r sick of having puffy eyes when it burst out,,correct?
Sometimes..when somebody said that they were just concern about u,whether u can manage it/is it possible for u cuz of ur state n such,,,it makes ur heart feels so heavy~the obstacles % increases n u have no idea what to say anymore,,cuz the rest u know what will happen..
People might see u as so weak/spoilt/too sensitive bout this particular thing cuz everytime the 'teardrop' will be mention,,is it not?but i suppose that's the truth when u r dwelling with things u've been trying to strike all this while n always,,always something will slow or perhaps halt it for a moment..
Negatively thinking-it's not meant to be for u
Positively thinking-u r being tested,ought to be strong n more hardworking
N those minute factors,,builds up the problem even more,,kind of stupid to think bout it,,so yea dont know dont care~,whatever~ n blablblala
still praying n hoping to the Almighty One to ease the burden n all things go smoothly as planned aaminnnn ;)
So yea,,imagine u've been worrying n crying or sometimes weeping after those misunderstanding,interpreting info's n many more,,cuz u've been thinking gosh how to make them understand it??how to do this alone?or can u do it?will u succeed?if u missed it..mm there could be a chance,but u'll be wasting time..n u know how precious time is,,,
Even though it is still last minute,but u need to take the chance,have faith in it.But it makes u go,,Ya Allah..why is it so hard to achieve such a thing,which is a great thing to aim for and a noble quest to share/help with afterwards,, So yea,for the past 2 days,,imagine u've rushing n being deeply patient,,emotionless again, reluctant to the rebellious feeling,,when solving the works.Hoping for others help,n how grateful u r for having them to help u settling the first 10%..,,n then u've been thinking again Ya Allah..how can i repay them..only U can Ya Rabb,please blessed them with what they deserved,,
But still,u r not done,,if u succeed then all those efforts for the 10% were worth it,,but if not,mmm could be taken as one of the new experience u gained,,but at the end; would still causes u to weep,,indeed.
So yea,,the worrying part will remain,,,it will haunt u untill u r 99.99% on going with the plan..
But God,how can u express what u feel right now?ppl say speak it out,,talk to others,but u r sick of having puffy eyes when it burst out,,correct?
Sometimes..when somebody said that they were just concern about u,whether u can manage it/is it possible for u cuz of ur state n such,,,it makes ur heart feels so heavy~the obstacles % increases n u have no idea what to say anymore,,cuz the rest u know what will happen..
People might see u as so weak/spoilt/too sensitive bout this particular thing cuz everytime the 'teardrop' will be mention,,is it not?but i suppose that's the truth when u r dwelling with things u've been trying to strike all this while n always,,always something will slow or perhaps halt it for a moment..
Negatively thinking-it's not meant to be for u
Positively thinking-u r being tested,ought to be strong n more hardworking
N those minute factors,,builds up the problem even more,,kind of stupid to think bout it,,so yea dont know dont care~,whatever~ n blablblala
still praying n hoping to the Almighty One to ease the burden n all things go smoothly as planned aaminnnn ;)
Saturday, July 19, 2008
new chapter begins~
yup 1st time leaving alone hmm~
Two weeks had passed.The odd world seemed fine and I'm starting
to get use to it.Eventhough some people couldn't be there,to see
and leave you away from the comfort zone,,for the 1st time,though
it should be that way years ago.Alhamdulillah,Ya Allah,the most
Gracious and Merciful for giving me the strength and willingness
without realising it to keep moving forward although the mind
partially kept on swirling/declining/objecting;but the body keeps
doing it as if somebody's instructing/operating yourself.The farewell
that Sunday evening actually was rather emotional,,but as she always
do,I did that to them-'salam',bye and turn around,,before more
'unwanted' scene occured.I dont know,how Allah had make me doing
all the things by myself,alone and emotionless;where no daddy/big
sis to send/talk to them,settling things,move around and many
more.Sometimes i feel 'empty',like a robot doing as it's been
programmed.
The 1st day was quite enjoyable;where I think other people wouldn't
get the opportunity like we did.Then the rest of the week just
exploring the area,getting to know places,what do they have and
how things work here.Afterwards the following week,tuesday;8am-
6pm,what a torture and it will remains for the rest of the term,I
suppose.The body couldn't sustained anymore.Maybe due to new
'ambience',new environment and new people;u just need to 'go
slow'.But NO!if u didn't follow as it is,how are you going to
overcome/endure/face more pain/obstacles/tears even more in the
next step?!They called.I know it's what everyone would
do;concern,caring and love.But it makes you 'weak'.Just a quick
response.It may sound 'unresponsive',but you need to build the
resistance.Like I told Zen''It's not that I don't want them to call,
I would love to,,but I prefer only sometimes or just messaging cuz it
can makes you 'break down''.Even she agreed.
The other peeps are friendly.Though haven't get to know the other
courses.Quite funny experiences in Chem and Eng;a bit,the rest are
OK.Thougher works and expectations,but if others can do it,why
can't you??The others are doing their own work.The path which is
already secured for them.Their own world.How I wish I could be at
their place.Sometimes it's sad to think of what you are now or how
they look what I am becoming,even though it's not that bad or it
is.*the medicine said can cause drowsinesss,but it's nearly 3.30am
and nothing happened.What a stubborn resistant!*
So yea,surviving the other week.What an accomplishment.Hoping it
can keep going well.I've been thinking/wondering;''with this frail
body can i pursue what i've been dreamt of?how come some real
movies/dramas made people with disease a great doctor/specialist?''
When you found out that particular person,that you look up and
love,find that you,sometimes are just a nuisance.It makes the tear
glands activated non stop.You've been thinking;gosh,all this while
my enthusiasm,cheerfulness and support,,gone with the wind.And
that certain people's response on you which is not what you were
hoping for,turn you off/dissapoint/halt the plans you intended to do
in the next meeting.But on 2nd thought;..Oh well,bad day,,not the
end of the world,..what goes around,comes around?..perhaps~
After all,human makes mistakes.That's my weakness or can be call
now;the ability of forgiveness;it's a good trait,isn't it?
The good news from Iffah was a big shock!Was just
guessing;spontaneous one,but it came out to be true.So many
questions being asked.Yea,I was curious;how,why,when,what?and so
on;bad traits-ask too many questions.My sis once told me to be a
lawyer because of that.But hey,it was too sudden,you need
info's~Anyway,Congrats!MashaAllah,,I'm really happy for you.May
Allah bless you with a blissful life~~I really envy her,though
something are missing but she's 10000 times better than me!All the
memories/lessons the 3 of us had had will be treasured forever!
Some people forget what friendship really is and treated things as if
'it doesn't matter' where as for others 'it does'.
Sometimes you just need to carry on walking.And back to the
Almighty One when you are lost.End what you had been doing and
sort the tasks you are destined to do/be.Even so~~
Two weeks had passed.The odd world seemed fine and I'm starting
to get use to it.Eventhough some people couldn't be there,to see
and leave you away from the comfort zone,,for the 1st time,though
it should be that way years ago.Alhamdulillah,Ya Allah,the most
Gracious and Merciful for giving me the strength and willingness
without realising it to keep moving forward although the mind
partially kept on swirling/declining/objecting;but the body keeps
doing it as if somebody's instructing/operating yourself.The farewell
that Sunday evening actually was rather emotional,,but as she always
do,I did that to them-'salam',bye and turn around,,before more
'unwanted' scene occured.I dont know,how Allah had make me doing
all the things by myself,alone and emotionless;where no daddy/big
sis to send/talk to them,settling things,move around and many
more.Sometimes i feel 'empty',like a robot doing as it's been
programmed.
The 1st day was quite enjoyable;where I think other people wouldn't
get the opportunity like we did.Then the rest of the week just
exploring the area,getting to know places,what do they have and
how things work here.Afterwards the following week,tuesday;8am-
6pm,what a torture and it will remains for the rest of the term,I
suppose.The body couldn't sustained anymore.Maybe due to new
'ambience',new environment and new people;u just need to 'go
slow'.But NO!if u didn't follow as it is,how are you going to
overcome/endure/face more pain/obstacles/tears even more in the
next step?!They called.I know it's what everyone would
do;concern,caring and love.But it makes you 'weak'.Just a quick
response.It may sound 'unresponsive',but you need to build the
resistance.Like I told Zen''It's not that I don't want them to call,
I would love to,,but I prefer only sometimes or just messaging cuz it
can makes you 'break down''.Even she agreed.
The other peeps are friendly.Though haven't get to know the other
courses.Quite funny experiences in Chem and Eng;a bit,the rest are
OK.Thougher works and expectations,but if others can do it,why
can't you??The others are doing their own work.The path which is
already secured for them.Their own world.How I wish I could be at
their place.Sometimes it's sad to think of what you are now or how
they look what I am becoming,even though it's not that bad or it
is.*the medicine said can cause drowsinesss,but it's nearly 3.30am
and nothing happened.What a stubborn resistant!*
So yea,surviving the other week.What an accomplishment.Hoping it
can keep going well.I've been thinking/wondering;''with this frail
body can i pursue what i've been dreamt of?how come some real
movies/dramas made people with disease a great doctor/specialist?''
When you found out that particular person,that you look up and
love,find that you,sometimes are just a nuisance.It makes the tear
glands activated non stop.You've been thinking;gosh,all this while
my enthusiasm,cheerfulness and support,,gone with the wind.And
that certain people's response on you which is not what you were
hoping for,turn you off/dissapoint/halt the plans you intended to do
in the next meeting.But on 2nd thought;..Oh well,bad day,,not the
end of the world,..what goes around,comes around?..perhaps~
After all,human makes mistakes.That's my weakness or can be call
now;the ability of forgiveness;it's a good trait,isn't it?
The good news from Iffah was a big shock!Was just
guessing;spontaneous one,but it came out to be true.So many
questions being asked.Yea,I was curious;how,why,when,what?and so
on;bad traits-ask too many questions.My sis once told me to be a
lawyer because of that.But hey,it was too sudden,you need
info's~Anyway,Congrats!MashaAllah,,I'm really happy for you.May
Allah bless you with a blissful life~~I really envy her,though
something are missing but she's 10000 times better than me!All the
memories/lessons the 3 of us had had will be treasured forever!
Some people forget what friendship really is and treated things as if
'it doesn't matter' where as for others 'it does'.
Sometimes you just need to carry on walking.And back to the
Almighty One when you are lost.End what you had been doing and
sort the tasks you are destined to do/be.Even so~~
:.sayonara
yup back when i was leaving doha~sad...
just slept for almost 2 hours yesterday n then woke up at 5am to bid my farewell~..nobody was in the class,n then after some times misha came,,big smile,''qeylaaa'',,so i told her what was going on,the shocking news i got last night,but then tonight plan changed again,sigh..then i went somewhere n anjuli n yumi were in the class,huggies~~n anj gave this cute pressie,,hahah so cute n i'm still wearing the bracelet,,asked them to walk outside,,cool breeze for the last walk around the school..how i missed the good old days we had in grd 10 n 11 walking around during breaks..1st 2 lessons,cs,so just sit with nurul at the common room,they were having chem test that day,i told ms.luthra i dont want to do it,,haha even anj was like ''what's the point?'' hehe,,then maths,,had no clue,,well a bit,,cuz missed the whole lesson,,,so just kept quiet n tried to do the questions with nurul's help..chem test just took the paper n tried to do it with open book nyahaha,it was past papers,,then breaks,,ate the last chicken sandwich with nurul outside,,talking stuff about 'undescribable' juniors..then double bio,,1st period at chem's lab,end up chatting n signing my shirt =)
then hug ms.luthra,went upstairs,,oh time to get the certificate,,wasnt a good thing,,talked to the *beep* accountant,spoilt my mood cuz he didnt understand what i was saying,now i know how they felt,,hahha so i was like 'hmm ok thank u'',,went out told afif n nurul,,then anj n dd came down n ask what's going on,told them 'i'm pissed'..then cant talk or tears will come out,,then couldnt hold it anymore,,wahh 1st time both of them saw me crying! then ms.latha was there,she tought i was sad cuz leaving i was like 'nothing ms,it's ok'' then dd hug,,aww,,they told me to talk to mr.martin,,dont think it will work,then i just told them to go to afif to see how is she,,afterwards we asked mr.martin,,n the answer was sooo not helping,,thought so,so yeah went upstairs took my hp n called daddy,afif talked to him then fine,,he called again n wanted to talk to the registrar,,still no idea,so he said 'let me talked to the accountant',,gave it to him n then he asked them to photocopy the certificate n gave it out,,gosh what do they do,,just take $??,,QP didnt do it,,wth?!if QP had not done it,,we'll surely get the letter when the term started,,hellloo it's already nearly end of the term,,then ms.rema,,hmm sad,,her words,,n the results last aug,,couldnt hold it,,keep on pouring,,couldnt say anything just ''uhuh,,mhmm'' ,,bell rang,,took pics,,hahaha crazy pics,,BIG HUG,,emo moment,,andrew was like 'r u crying?' gonna mishh them so much,,couldnt find mr.ammi n ms.sheila,,at last found him outside,ran to him ,,told him,,he was kinda surprised too,,
asked him where ms.sheila is,,running again,,haa she's still there,,my heart felt so heavy,,huuu told her everything,,then had a little talk..n farewell~~
oh n on the way home,,was talking to afif but still sensitive over this matter,,it's still there,just waiting to be ticced n it will run down..
meggy i just read your message today thank you for everything!!no probs dude,that's what friends r for ^_^ ,,i felt the same too,,gonna miss u dude,,yup same b'day!n as always..u can do it!!u r the sweetest person too,,be strong,,i know u are!good luck in what ever u do..mail me or when i come online,,nudge me~~!being in the bio class for 2 yrs was fun..we were the 'good' girls,,hahaha..
n the rest of u guys,,,damn i'll miss for sure!!to suzy choosy,,hv fun in dubai baby+do what ever u like!,,lol how i missed u said,,''hey baby'',,hahha,,nix,jeremy,billy,,hmm the meany ahmad,,maryam,shivi,n who ever i didnt mentioned,,all of my memories,will keep u near~~
n to qatar's friendss,,those m'sian,,take care~
sayonara~
just slept for almost 2 hours yesterday n then woke up at 5am to bid my farewell~..nobody was in the class,n then after some times misha came,,big smile,''qeylaaa'',,so i told her what was going on,the shocking news i got last night,but then tonight plan changed again,sigh..then i went somewhere n anjuli n yumi were in the class,huggies~~n anj gave this cute pressie,,hahah so cute n i'm still wearing the bracelet,,asked them to walk outside,,cool breeze for the last walk around the school..how i missed the good old days we had in grd 10 n 11 walking around during breaks..1st 2 lessons,cs,so just sit with nurul at the common room,they were having chem test that day,i told ms.luthra i dont want to do it,,haha even anj was like ''what's the point?'' hehe,,then maths,,had no clue,,well a bit,,cuz missed the whole lesson,,,so just kept quiet n tried to do the questions with nurul's help..chem test just took the paper n tried to do it with open book nyahaha,it was past papers,,then breaks,,ate the last chicken sandwich with nurul outside,,talking stuff about 'undescribable' juniors..then double bio,,1st period at chem's lab,end up chatting n signing my shirt =)
then hug ms.luthra,went upstairs,,oh time to get the certificate,,wasnt a good thing,,talked to the *beep* accountant,spoilt my mood cuz he didnt understand what i was saying,now i know how they felt,,hahha so i was like 'hmm ok thank u'',,went out told afif n nurul,,then anj n dd came down n ask what's going on,told them 'i'm pissed'..then cant talk or tears will come out,,then couldnt hold it anymore,,wahh 1st time both of them saw me crying! then ms.latha was there,she tought i was sad cuz leaving i was like 'nothing ms,it's ok'' then dd hug,,aww,,they told me to talk to mr.martin,,dont think it will work,then i just told them to go to afif to see how is she,,afterwards we asked mr.martin,,n the answer was sooo not helping,,thought so,so yeah went upstairs took my hp n called daddy,afif talked to him then fine,,he called again n wanted to talk to the registrar,,still no idea,so he said 'let me talked to the accountant',,gave it to him n then he asked them to photocopy the certificate n gave it out,,gosh what do they do,,just take $??,,QP didnt do it,,wth?!if QP had not done it,,we'll surely get the letter when the term started,,hellloo it's already nearly end of the term,,then ms.rema,,hmm sad,,her words,,n the results last aug,,couldnt hold it,,keep on pouring,,couldnt say anything just ''uhuh,,mhmm'' ,,bell rang,,took pics,,hahaha crazy pics,,BIG HUG,,emo moment,,andrew was like 'r u crying?' gonna mishh them so much,,couldnt find mr.ammi n ms.sheila,,at last found him outside,ran to him ,,told him,,he was kinda surprised too,,
asked him where ms.sheila is,,running again,,haa she's still there,,my heart felt so heavy,,huuu told her everything,,then had a little talk..n farewell~~
oh n on the way home,,was talking to afif but still sensitive over this matter,,it's still there,just waiting to be ticced n it will run down..
meggy i just read your message today thank you for everything!!no probs dude,that's what friends r for ^_^ ,,i felt the same too,,gonna miss u dude,,yup same b'day!n as always..u can do it!!u r the sweetest person too,,be strong,,i know u are!good luck in what ever u do..mail me or when i come online,,nudge me~~!being in the bio class for 2 yrs was fun..we were the 'good' girls,,hahaha..
n the rest of u guys,,,damn i'll miss for sure!!to suzy choosy,,hv fun in dubai baby+do what ever u like!,,lol how i missed u said,,''hey baby'',,hahha,,nix,jeremy,billy,,hmm the meany ahmad,,maryam,shivi,n who ever i didnt mentioned,,all of my memories,will keep u near~~
n to qatar's friendss,,those m'sian,,take care~
sayonara~
memories.:
well,this happened last year,wrote it last year too haha~
just wanna keep it here so that it'll reminds me :D
greatest friendship ever~!!thank u so much u guys!!it was extremely sweet!!!warda called yesterday from school,she said something like ''if i'm really your friend can u please come tomorrow?'',cant really recalled the exact words xD,,so i said 'yeah,i am coming,i was so ready to come today but i got major headache'..ok then yada yada yada,,,come to school only me n misha,,where is everybody?!
Then nurul poped up,,randika afterwards n so on~~Oh!i asked mishu to write something in yumi chan's present diary book my last year's b'day (^.^).Then Bio class still no teacher,had to be in ms.luthra's class,,only 5 ppl /swt,,then phy n cs,,hahah straight 4 lessons freeee,,then during 4th lesson mishu's 'pretending' to call me n nurul,,n when i enter the class.....'surprised!!!!!!!!!' waaah i couldnt believed they could make this,,huhu,,that's why nurul didnt want to tell me what's in the bag earlier >.>..n then all the pressies n food a.k.a snacks hhaha,,n andrew being a gentleman by offering moi the drink <33..nyahaha n they had this coke drinking dare,gosh!danny's eyes turning almost red n then all those mallu's jokes n stuff,,,huggiesss n wishes,,ah!my super big card..glittering n BIG picture of meh!!hahaha..then as usual picsss,,hmm what else,need to clean the mess n they were saying 'no,no they said u dont hv to',after i started to clean a bit,(yeah cant stand dirty place xP)
After that,,hmm oh still huggieness n appreciations n biochem free lesson,Ms.Rema was like 'it sad u r going/leaving' ,'yea ms.it's been 4 yrs~~' then chem,last lesson,,headache attacked again,,bleeh,,chem kinda sleepy but at the end,it was ok,,n time to go home~~ah forgot,new class teacher,1st day met her n then last day this thursday.Ms Rema was going to hug n bye n those stuff,but then Ms.Latha was like 'i'll save it for thursday',,ngeee,then Mr.Martin,cant even distinguished between me n afif wth,so i just 'yes sir' hahaha
d farewell party pixies :D
my huge card =]
To:
anjuli:yesh,i know no one can make a perfect tie for u like i did n the animes n games where ppl dont understand what we are talking about,stalking consti n 'it''is''s***'haaha,n walking in the morning,chasing the lil kids,huhu many more~~
warda:gonna mish u girl,uhuh, thanks for listening+being there when i need someone,getting dragged by anjuli n making fun of her n the laughter n ditching u guys.
Dd:dont be sad n emos,friends come n go,cant stay like that for the rest of ur life eventhough u really wanted it,,beat them up when they called u mallus,,hahaha,,take care of randidi~
Andrew:yeayea the coolest guy,i wont lost 'IT' in uni dont worry >.>
Fardan:yea,i'll try to listen to metal~~
Osman:haha excellent,,,gonna miss u dude
Azmi:thanks but i wont name my child by ur name,,hahaha
Danial:thanks,it was great too,mechanics 100% again ey!? nyaaha
Cassey:ey man~~
Misha:thanks for all~~i lup u!gonna miss ur words to me 'aww so cutee' xD
Randika:those 2 yrs in econ class was fun n friends 4eva
Yumi-chan:yup,yup,,come n visit me,,i'll miss u too!n smack them when they r mean to u,,hehhe
my dearly Diba:dont worry akak,kite bleh online nnt,,huhu,,thanks for all this time,ur company n help n friendship,,cayang akak <3
n dearly iffah:kakak iffah,,i really appreciated what u had done for me all this while,,thank u so much!!nnt bleh online same diba hahaha,cayang akak juge<33
just wanna keep it here so that it'll reminds me :D
greatest friendship ever~!!thank u so much u guys!!it was extremely sweet!!!warda called yesterday from school,she said something like ''if i'm really your friend can u please come tomorrow?'',cant really recalled the exact words xD,,so i said 'yeah,i am coming,i was so ready to come today but i got major headache'..ok then yada yada yada,,,come to school only me n misha,,where is everybody?!
Then nurul poped up,,randika afterwards n so on~~Oh!i asked mishu to write something in yumi chan's present diary book my last year's b'day (^.^).Then Bio class still no teacher,had to be in ms.luthra's class,,only 5 ppl /swt,,then phy n cs,,hahah straight 4 lessons freeee,,then during 4th lesson mishu's 'pretending' to call me n nurul,,n when i enter the class.....'surprised!!!!!!!!!' waaah i couldnt believed they could make this,,huhu,,that's why nurul didnt want to tell me what's in the bag earlier >.>..n then all the pressies n food a.k.a snacks hhaha,,n andrew being a gentleman by offering moi the drink <33..nyahaha n they had this coke drinking dare,gosh!danny's eyes turning almost red n then all those mallu's jokes n stuff,,,huggiesss n wishes,,ah!my super big card..glittering n BIG picture of meh!!hahaha..then as usual picsss,,hmm what else,need to clean the mess n they were saying 'no,no they said u dont hv to',after i started to clean a bit,(yeah cant stand dirty place xP)
After that,,hmm oh still huggieness n appreciations n biochem free lesson,Ms.Rema was like 'it sad u r going/leaving' ,'yea ms.it's been 4 yrs~~' then chem,last lesson,,headache attacked again,,bleeh,,chem kinda sleepy but at the end,it was ok,,n time to go home~~ah forgot,new class teacher,1st day met her n then last day this thursday.Ms Rema was going to hug n bye n those stuff,but then Ms.Latha was like 'i'll save it for thursday',,ngeee,then Mr.Martin,cant even distinguished between me n afif wth,so i just 'yes sir' hahaha
d farewell party pixies :D
my huge card =]
To:
anjuli:yesh,i know no one can make a perfect tie for u like i did n the animes n games where ppl dont understand what we are talking about,stalking consti n 'it''is''s***'haaha,n walking in the morning,chasing the lil kids,huhu many more~~
warda:gonna mish u girl,uhuh, thanks for listening+being there when i need someone,getting dragged by anjuli n making fun of her n the laughter n ditching u guys.
Dd:dont be sad n emos,friends come n go,cant stay like that for the rest of ur life eventhough u really wanted it,,beat them up when they called u mallus,,hahaha,,take care of randidi~
Andrew:yeayea the coolest guy,i wont lost 'IT' in uni dont worry >.>
Fardan:yea,i'll try to listen to metal~~
Osman:haha excellent,,,gonna miss u dude
Azmi:thanks but i wont name my child by ur name,,hahaha
Danial:thanks,it was great too,mechanics 100% again ey!? nyaaha
Cassey:ey man~~
Misha:thanks for all~~i lup u!gonna miss ur words to me 'aww so cutee' xD
Randika:those 2 yrs in econ class was fun n friends 4eva
Yumi-chan:yup,yup,,come n visit me,,i'll miss u too!n smack them when they r mean to u,,hehhe
my dearly Diba:dont worry akak,kite bleh online nnt,,huhu,,thanks for all this time,ur company n help n friendship,,cayang akak <3
n dearly iffah:kakak iffah,,i really appreciated what u had done for me all this while,,thank u so much!!nnt bleh online same diba hahaha,cayang akak juge<33
